When the tables are turned...

I have witnessed the ugly side of human nature in the last 24 hours. I have seen how my own sibling allow an outsider deride the family and even cheering her on.

The same outsider mind you that my own sibling has complained about, the same outsider who not too long ago had blatant disregard for my sibling's family commitments. And now, it is with the same outsider that my sister has chosen to stand side-by-side with.

What a traitor! Sanggup lagi against her own family. What has the world come to?

When admonished, my sibling now plays "I have been victimized" card. And better yet, when before there was no consideration on her part to reflect as to how God may view her actions and words, now God is now always on their lips (husband included). That God is not cruel. God will punish those who deserve it.

I see, baru sekarang nak ingat Tuhan ya? Before you judge others, take a good look at yourself first. When swearing on Papa's grave or on the Al Quran can be taken lightly by you, you still think it is on others that God's wrath will be inflicted upon?

God is All Knowing and God is Fair. Tahulah Dia siapa betul, siapa salah. I leave it to Him to decide the outcome.

To the outsider that my sibling has chosen to stand side by side against the family - remember..

...if you live in a glass house, don't throw stones...

Amazing....

It's amazing...the world of make believe that a creative liar can conjure up. When you write something to give yourself the assurance that you are just a good, decent person - a bit downtrodden on her luck- but good nevertheless.

What drives her to treat mama like a piece of scrap metal on one hand and justify her right to do so because she is not breaking any terms of contract? On the other hand, she is waxing lyrical about Forrest Gump's outlook on life - so upbeat, so optimistic?!!!

Forrest Gump loved his mother - and treated her with respect, unlike my sister, it must be said. I think now everyone knows what she is really like...

Isn't it funny Papa? The one that we protected the most ends up backstabbing the family that you have left behind and she is so proud of herself too.

I asked this question before - why does God let it pass? Why does Mama keep getting hurt and bruised in the process.

Please stop her God - I beseech you. No one should get hurt anymore..especially not Mama, Erin nor Ezane.

It´s enough

This trip back to Malaysia was the most painful by far. I have seen and felt and witnessed all sorts and manner of deception, lies and plain deceit. To top it all off, I have had my heart broken countless times when I witnessed and felt how both my nephew and niece have been neglected.

NEGLECTED - there is no other kinder word for it. To let the eldest son be pushed aside while his parents were struggling to sort out their problems is one thing but to let him go through it again and this time with the youngest daughter lumped in the same ship is quite atrocious and sickening to say the very least.

The mother blames her job which keeps spewing her forth on endless business trips but in the end, it had turned out that she chose to stay away because of clandestine pursuits. Her son hardly sees her, same for her daughter but she is so wrapped up in her own bubble love world that she dumps them with our mother practically the whole time.

Got news for you - seeing them once or twice a week and holding them and spouting i-love-you"s are not enough.!!!! Even when pointed out, she had cried tears of remorse and had promised to change - really? Two days max - and it's all back to the same old, same old.

Even reptiles show more care for their young...

And consider me - the one who had stood by her throughout - is the same person she had used to further deceive her family and unwittingly, had allowed her to further pursue her distractions.
I have read her blog - oh! so quiant and poetic and emotional - more motherly love cannot be read elsewhere - but it is all a big bucket of bullshit. She doesn't mean a word of it. As she herself had said "They are just written words" What was it she wanted to do at the time? Yield to her son's pleas to stop smoking...yeah...just words...

How do you view your children? As toys that you can keep in a drawer when you don´t feel like playing with them and take them out for a bit when you have the notion to suddenly be a mother - you selfish piece of wasted work?

I hate you - I really do - because of the pain you have caused them and from what I gather - continuing to inflict.

The best part of it all? This one ginseng selling company must be one helluva flexible outfit - first they had granted her 1 weeks notice and then, 2 weeks ...and when the 2 weeks' deadline fell through - her creativity has come forth and now, the story is - The ginseng selling company has not confirmed her resignation!!!

Can you beat that? I mean, I wished I had such a caring employer during my time...

What do you mean? It was all a bluff??!!! No - you don't say...!

Ah ja....when she did stop working, she would have to stay at Mama's house which will mean that she will have to be a mother full time. Horrors!!!! What about her free time to be a party single again, free to pursue great flying heights (with some kick ass Shakespeare wannabe thrown in)?

What is it about liars that think that the people they lie to are as dumb as logs?

When does God then come in? I mean, she can't be continuing this act without some sort of come-uppance, can she? Where is then the justice of it all?


I wonder though - how long more can you get away with it?